Day 17- or 13ish left in course 1.. whichever sounds better.

sorry i'm a little late.. matt was trying to convince me to write about which mom likes better, pancakes or waffles.. when i asked she said: buffalo chicken wraps, shrimp with bowties and a steak sub.. i guess she didn't feel like playing that game.. sorry beavis! 

ps.. i've given up on capital letters.. my fingers aren't working well and i can't put that much energy into capitalizing a stupid letter.. to all you english teachers, work it out.. in fact.. i might just start spelling phonetically so i don't waste energy on that either! kind of like how lu lu, my dog, would spell.  haahaa.

sheila came in and chatted with us for a while this morning.. we're trying to get mom comfortable so we've got a few new plans.. maybe a lidocaine patch for her back, a little more ambien at night (stupid beeping pole) a tiny increase in her anti-anxiety meds and some gas-x.  hopefully all of this will take the edge off.. she is trying so hard to be perfect and brave.. i keep telling her just be comfortable!! 

she just told me to tell you all that when she gets home she's going to make every single recipe she's been watching on the food network.. everything looks so good..

anyways, back to sheila.. we have known for a while that she's been feeling light headed and dizzy when she gets up, (orthostatic) so she's been instructed to sit first... then stand up slowly.. hold on to things.. and she's been doing that.  well yesterday she felt very faint after coming out of the bathroom, and that's when sheila and dr. griffiths thought maybe the clot went into her lung.. this morning, mom was just getting out of the bathroom when sheila came in and mom felt the same way.. light headed and dizzy...we discovered that when mom was sitting in the bathroom, it's a bit hot in there, so she's been putting her head between her knees or resting her head on the garbage can because she thought that would make her less light headed (thank god they sanitize the bathroom everyday).... for like 5 minutes at a time.. then she'd try to stand up and almost pass out.. so she has strict orders to sit upright while in the bathroom because that's definitely what is making her feel dizzy!!!  glad we've figured that out.  :)  she should feel much better now!!

she is feeling better than yesterday.. it wasn't a very good day yesterday and she's glad it's over.  Today she looks better, has more color, feels like she has more energy and is in better spirits.  she's reading her cards and letters now.. i guess they do come almost everyday. 

she's anxiously waiting for dad to come and is thankful i'm here to watch her "like a baby" as she put it.. though i'm really just sitting here making sure she has anything she needs/wants.  most of all keeping her company when she wants it. 

here comes the lidocaine patch... she is excited!!!  oohh it was cold!  she wasn't expecting that!  she's smiling now.. maybe it's alredy working.  :)

so again, she's going to try to shower today.. though she knows it will make her feel better, she's cuddled into her clean, fresh, soft blanket and doesn't want to get up.. she's a sucker for soft blankets. 
the neeley's are on.. so we'll at least wait until they're done before she showers.  mom LOVES them.. she just thinks they're so cute and funny.. glad they make her happy! 

we'll go now and write after the doctor visits.  maybe she's got some great news! 

love.  ps.. she picked pancakes.